Forgiveness

If laughter is the best medicine, then I guess forgiveness is the best remedy for the trouble heart. To forgive someone is the hardest thing to do. So as sorry seems to be the hardest word to say. It's very difficult to forgive someone especially those who had made us suffer mentally or physically. We want grudge, until we forget to think the word "forgive". Why is that? Simple answer but true, ego. We are egoist person and we think that we are always right. We think we are good enough and the perfect creature in this world. Seems like we are never cursing, gossiping, bad-mouthing others, etc. We are too egoist to admit the fact that we are also sometimes made mistakes and there were times where we hurt others feeling same like they did to us. This is life. Fair and square.

Am I a trouble maker? I admit that I'm not perfect. But please do understand me sometimes and don't ever think that you are always right. If I have problems or those problems give a damn to me, I wish you would give me some time to think so that I can comfort my broken heart. I need that damn time to soothe my haywire minds. If you push me, then I don't think I can hold back my patience much longer than I suppose to. Why is that? Because I am not that perfect. I do have my own bad side in my heart and soul.

Humans are always like that. We are never PERFECT! Full stop.

C.N.Y Holidays

I guess today is not my day. Everything I do seem wrong and I made a lot of mistakes. Ahh.....so sad. Everytime I feel sad, I will think about my mom. Straightly in my mind, I will think that there must be something bad I have done to my mom or my dad. I don't know. I just feel it. That's why my life was in miserable today. :('

Can't wait to go home tomorrow night! I need my mom right now.

P/s: Happy Chinese New Year to all Malaysians. Malaysians, let's live together as a big family no matter who we are!

I curse you!

Bloody bastard! How dare you stole my helmet! Crazy people......... Urghhh!!! I hate this state. Please la, don't be so immorale. Are you happy by stealing other's helmet. You know what, sinner? You don't just that bastard, you miserable my life and people around me. Because of you, first, I had trouble to go back home. Second, I had quarrel with my friend! Dammit! You'll pay for this. I curse you for ever............

People nowadays (especially youth) are so immoral, selfish and shit! Period.

Teaching Practice Day 5

Today is the last day for this week before Chinese New Year break for 1 week. Yeppi!!! I will take this opportunity to think about my previous day in the school, my students and the teachers. The most important thing is I wanna improve my teaching skills, communication skills, lesson plan and everything. Ya Allah, thanks for the one week break. Hopefully after the break, everything will be alright and I can be someone else whose much better for the students and the school. Chaiyok!

P/s: My school session is in afternoon. In school today, I guess I have to relief a few classes as the Chinese teachers will take early leave for CNY holidays this Sunday. The second thing is I need to hand in my RPH or record book to the principal.

Teaching Practice Day 3 & 4

Now I know you my students. I have two class to handle - Form 1C and Form 2C. Because they are still young ( 13 and 14 yours old) so, sometimes they over-behaved to attract teacher's attention. I have a lot to say about today's school, but let's just stop here. Enough to share, as a practical teacher, you must have high patience not just with the students but also the teacher especially your mentor. Period.

I will be advisor teacher for St John, Rusa (Rumah Sukan) and English Society.

P/s: It's not easy to be a teacher! Who said otherwise, with my humble, I invite you to be a teacher.

Teaching Practice Day 2

Nothing much to say - just "a student is still a student". I hate the fact that I started to like them even though there were time I felt like I wanna zipped their mouth and tied their hands and feet at their chair. Like one of my coursemate posted on Facebook, "This job is killing me rather fast, and it's only the second day". When I read that statement, all I can do just smile and shook my head. Seems like I agree with her. Really? Half of me said no BUT half of me said YES, it is! Ah, screw it. No matter what, today is only the second day and I still have 3 more months to go. Fighting!

O yeah. I forgot about my students. I really don't want to say it but..................zzzzzz

Teaching Practice Day 1

Today I'm not doing any BIG thing yet. Just met with the mentor along with the teacher whose I will replace her class for the next three month. So, I just get the syllabus, yearly scheme of work, curriculum specification, Gantt chart, checklist, text books and mother of all - DSP / PBS. From 1:05 until 6:50, there was nothing much to do. I'm suppose to teach 1 class today but the teacher would like to finish the pending exercises with the class. I'm so so glad to hear that because I came without preparing anything except the games. Huhuuu, I thought if I have to attend the class without the syllabus, then I'll just play games with them. Some sort like ice-breaking activity.

Today is just the beginning as tomorrow is the real day for me. Yup, tonight I must complete 2 lesson plan for 2 different classes. And the most important thing is I'll meet my students face to face. Me teaching them? O yeah! :) Wait the minute!! I feel thrill to meet them but at the same time, nervous. Yes, I am. I really want to be a great teacher for them. And I want to feel the sense of belonging in my class. Most important, I want them to enjoy my lesson. Hopefully, I can control the class and conduct an interesting and lively lesson. Please pray for me ya!

Anything I will post tomorrow. Let's see what will happen then. :D

Call me Miss A ❤

omaigod, omaigod, omaigod!!!!

Today is the day. Yup, you!! get ready for a real world! When I woke up this morning, I felt like I have hundred kilograms burden on my head. For a while I talked to myself, "Is this true or just my dream?" Arghhh,,,I don't want wake up yet. I want the day still in early morning..errr,,,,perhaps for today's 24 hours. Heeee. On my dream! :)

Because I'm in afternoon session, I still have a few more hours before I start dressing myself - make up, wearing baju kurung with matching headscarf, high heels, handbag, another bag.....etc. Don't forget stationery. I need that. O God! Please think positive, please think positive! Whether I like it or not, I have to face the reality. I must complete my practical and do my part as a society, as a big girl ( I don't want to say it yet- woman?), as a daughter of my mom and dad and as a humble servant for Allah. This is what I'm going to do onward in my future career and I have to take this opportunity to get as much as experiences that I need as a future T.E.A.C.H.E.R!

Please pray for me! tq. I wish all the best for my friends and other colleagues. Hope we can grasp the success and get ready for beautiful and amazing G.R.A.D.U.A.T.I.O.N day!!!

P/s: Starting from today and three more months onward, do call me Miss A. ❤❤❤



                      

15 ways to keep relationship working

Hope this tips will  be able to help those who would like to improve their relationship not just with their girlfriend or boyfriend but also with their family, friends, or even the society.....❤

P/s: I will try these tips in my daily life. Hope its working for a better life. (｡◕‿◕｡)

An accident is an accident.Period.

If I look at the bright side and think positively, I realize that an accident is an accident! No one wish a tragedy happens in their lives. So as my little brother. Hmm......I guess these past few days I was quite emotional. And guess what? It's because of 'woman hormon and disease'. Know what I mean right. Huhuhu...Now I started to feel sorry for him and I would like to thank him for still being alive in that horrible accident. If something happens to him, I wouldn't know what will happen to my family. Good or bad, after all, he is our youngest little brother. He is still young and of course he loves to explore his young age and teenage life in his own 'special' way. I hope I have the opportunity to guide her well. Because I am his sister as well as a future TEACHER! ヽ(•‿•)ノ. Please pray for me ya!.....tq

Now, forget all the bad things and starts a new chapter in 2013. The bright and beautiful one. Fighting!

Once again, countless of time - Me sad :(

I guess TODAY is my saddest day in 2013. Lots of things happened in my life's diary. When I looked at the sky this evening, I can see the gloomy face of me ups there. Hiding behind the cloud with the tears that 'she' tried to suppress, to hide it from everyone. The near the date and the day of the BIG day, looks like more unexpected or unforeseen accidents happen. Not once, but...twice, thrice,....I don't know. The numbers keep going and will always...in future. And the most upsetting thing in the world is when the one you trust the most betrayed you. No matter if she/ he is your friend, colleague, buddy or even your own family member. And this kind of act happen to me just now. And he is my youngest brother that I love the most. The one that I think resemble me the most and always someone that I trust to rely on. How come he ever dare to betray his sister, his own blood. I guess he didn't realize how much I hate him just now. Inside my heart shouted, 'YOU DON'T DESERVE MY LOVE AND TRUST!'

 I hate him not just because he hurts me and left my heart broken and smashed into pieces that I think will never ever get back to its shape again. No, that not the only reason. His action didn't just affecting me,but also his parents, other sibling and everyone besides him. 

1) He makes my mom be as cold as ice today. He hurts mom more than anyone. I hate this the most!!!

2) He left his other siblings over worried plus broken heart, just to find his whereabouts. 

3) He brought shame to our family.

4) He's too egoist and self-centered.

5) He's the BLACK SHEEP of the family.

Last but not least...

6) He broke my love trust towards him...( for ever ). No more second chance! (at least this year)

I promise to myself that I will never ever let him "touch and use" my babies (mobile phone, motorcycle, etc...). Please don't blame me, and don't tell the world that I'm a selfish sister...no, I am not. I love him, but he repay my love and trust in this "unbelievable" way that make me really want to shout, curse, kick, smack......his behaviour. He disgrace me, his mom and dad and siblings. He brought shame to our family. He makes his mom the saddest person in the world and because of this, I wouldn't think I can forgive him. Forgiveness will come soon, as the blood is thicker than water, but it will take time to rebuild the love and trust towards him once again. All he can do now is waiting and waiting for the forgiveness until everything is back to normal.

It's TRUE that wealth can be find again, but there is the time that we need to teach him A LESSON - Not to torture him, but for his sake in the future. Someone needs to open his eyes and the brain inside that hard skull of him so that he can think the good and the bad of his action if it happen again next time. Full stop.

Crazy me!

You change it from PINK to RED??? R U kidding me??? Gosh, I feel like want curse everyone right now. Why you not discuss with me first before you made the decision. Plus, it's not yours, it's mine, ok!!!! Crazy people, crazy me...... :(( Dammit!

I wish I never had "it". I guess that thing just make myself miserable. I hate it now even though I have had love 'my baby' before. Why everyone beside me try to make me sad? Why they don't even consider my feeling for once. Fine! If that what you want, don't be regret if I'm doing something you will not expect at all in return...Just wait for the day!!!

P/s: Forgiveness is not something you can easily give and get. You can never heal the broken heart in one day...you get it! Full stop.