Forgiveness

If laughter is the best medicine, then I guess forgiveness is the best remedy for the trouble heart. To forgive someone is the hardest thing to do. So as sorry seems to be the hardest word to say. It's very difficult to forgive someone especially those who had made us suffer mentally or physically. We want grudge, until we forget to think the word "forgive". Why is that? Simple answer but true, ego. We are egoist person and we think that we are always right. We think we are good enough and the perfect creature in this world. Seems like we are never cursing, gossiping, bad-mouthing others, etc. We are too egoist to admit the fact that we are also sometimes made mistakes and there were times where we hurt others feeling same like they did to us. This is life. Fair and square.

Am I a trouble maker? I admit that I'm not perfect. But please do understand me sometimes and don't ever think that you are always right. If I have problems or those problems give a damn to me, I wish you would give me some time to think so that I can comfort my broken heart. I need that damn time to soothe my haywire minds. If you push me, then I don't think I can hold back my patience much longer than I suppose to. Why is that? Because I am not that perfect. I do have my own bad side in my heart and soul.

Humans are always like that. We are never PERFECT! Full stop.

C.N.Y Holidays

I guess today is not my day. Everything I do seem wrong and I made a lot of mistakes. Ahh.....so sad. Everytime I feel sad, I will think about my mom. Straightly in my mind, I will think that there must be something bad I have done to my mom or my dad. I don't know. I just feel it. That's why my life was in miserable today. :('

Can't wait to go home tomorrow night! I need my mom right now.

P/s: Happy Chinese New Year to all Malaysians. Malaysians, let's live together as a big family no matter who we are!

I curse you!

Bloody bastard! How dare you stole my helmet! Crazy people......... Urghhh!!! I hate this state. Please la, don't be so immorale. Are you happy by stealing other's helmet. You know what, sinner? You don't just that bastard, you miserable my life and people around me. Because of you, first, I had trouble to go back home. Second, I had quarrel with my friend! Dammit! You'll pay for this. I curse you for ever............

People nowadays (especially youth) are so immoral, selfish and shit! Period.

Teaching Practice Day 5

Today is the last day for this week before Chinese New Year break for 1 week. Yeppi!!! I will take this opportunity to think about my previous day in the school, my students and the teachers. The most important thing is I wanna improve my teaching skills, communication skills, lesson plan and everything. Ya Allah, thanks for the one week break. Hopefully after the break, everything will be alright and I can be someone else whose much better for the students and the school. Chaiyok!

P/s: My school session is in afternoon. In school today, I guess I have to relief a few classes as the Chinese teachers will take early leave for CNY holidays this Sunday. The second thing is I need to hand in my RPH or record book to the principal.

Teaching Practice Day 3 & 4

Now I know you my students. I have two class to handle - Form 1C and Form 2C. Because they are still young ( 13 and 14 yours old) so, sometimes they over-behaved to attract teacher's attention. I have a lot to say about today's school, but let's just stop here. Enough to share, as a practical teacher, you must have high patience not just with the students but also the teacher especially your mentor. Period.

I will be advisor teacher for St John, Rusa (Rumah Sukan) and English Society.

P/s: It's not easy to be a teacher! Who said otherwise, with my humble, I invite you to be a teacher.

Teaching Practice Day 2

Nothing much to say - just "a student is still a student". I hate the fact that I started to like them even though there were time I felt like I wanna zipped their mouth and tied their hands and feet at their chair. Like one of my coursemate posted on Facebook, "This job is killing me rather fast, and it's only the second day". When I read that statement, all I can do just smile and shook my head. Seems like I agree with her. Really? Half of me said no BUT half of me said YES, it is! Ah, screw it. No matter what, today is only the second day and I still have 3 more months to go. Fighting!

O yeah. I forgot about my students. I really don't want to say it but..................zzzzzz

Teaching Practice Day 1

Today I'm not doing any BIG thing yet. Just met with the mentor along with the teacher whose I will replace her class for the next three month. So, I just get the syllabus, yearly scheme of work, curriculum specification, Gantt chart, checklist, text books and mother of all - DSP / PBS. From 1:05 until 6:50, there was nothing much to do. I'm suppose to teach 1 class today but the teacher would like to finish the pending exercises with the class. I'm so so glad to hear that because I came without preparing anything except the games. Huhuuu, I thought if I have to attend the class without the syllabus, then I'll just play games with them. Some sort like ice-breaking activity.

Today is just the beginning as tomorrow is the real day for me. Yup, tonight I must complete 2 lesson plan for 2 different classes. And the most important thing is I'll meet my students face to face. Me teaching them? O yeah! :) Wait the minute!! I feel thrill to meet them but at the same time, nervous. Yes, I am. I really want to be a great teacher for them. And I want to feel the sense of belonging in my class. Most important, I want them to enjoy my lesson. Hopefully, I can control the class and conduct an interesting and lively lesson. Please pray for me ya!

Anything I will post tomorrow. Let's see what will happen then. :D